It's A Relationship I Desire...

Sixty years.
  What do I have to show?

I asked God,"Has my life been what you required?"
"Or rather what you desired?"

I have always believed in you, I even took the step of faith,
I asked you to come into my heart when I was young
But decisions soon hardened that choice
I didn't see you in my life like I once had before

I tried to do good, work hard, and
smile everywhere I would go.
I was sure if I did everything right
You would be pleased, I know

But, you said, that hadn't been your requirement
that you hadn't asked it of me
my desire was for you to live instead
face to face, in my mercy and grace, totally free

I had to ponder that awhile
you don't change mindsets with ease
culture is hard to break from
it was everyone else that I had aimed to please

 the tide began to turn though
There was something different in the air
a fresh new breeze blew in
I sensed you drawing me there

I turned my face toward you
Your eyes, oh your eyes, full of compassion and love
"You are enough" you said, "always have been and always will be"
"Stop trying so hard, you have always been enough for me"

My feet became lighter, my soul started to dance
You blew your breath of freedom into my lungs
now flesh was no longer my interest
 I only longed to please you

 I realize now
that I'm your beautiful bride, forever
for all eternity...

"There is something I would have you do,"
I heard you gently say
"Go tell others this truth
how much I desire and wait for them every day,"

"It's not their performance
that I'm seeking, no not that at all,
it's a relationship I desire
nothing... nothing... more..."

sammie jean 3/12/17