Music

 It's been a long time since I sat in a lawn chair and listened to gospel music. We did that last night. I was instantly transported to the 70's at least 45 years ago, on the football field of a nearby town that I grew up in; lawn chairs all over the field, picnic baskets full of chicken and potato salad, quilts thrown on the ground for the babies, songs of Jesus filling the air. It took me back to my roots. Or I should say my foundation.  I absolutely loved those all night gospel sings. I looked forward to them every year. It was another time that my sister let me tag-along. She went with her friends and their families. I think I was actually a nuisance to her at times but she deeply cared about my salvation. She wasn't selfish at all when it came to sharing Jesus with me. She wanted me right there enjoying His presence too. Music has changed for me over the years. What God has done in my life through music, hasn't.  Around 1986 I started going to a different church. The music was different than any I had heard before. My collection of songs up until that time consisted of gospel and hymns, growing up in a Methodist Church. The music was different than any I had heard before. It was slower. Less instruments; piano, drums, maybe a guitar. It was more like a love song. It wasn't the music though, it was the lyrics that gripped my heart. On my first visit I remembered singing, as the dear pants for the water, oh my soul longs for you. you along are my one desire and I long to worship you. I had never sang scripture before and as I sang Holy Spirit seemed to penetrate my very heart. I realized that I wasn't singing about God anymore but I was singing directly to Him. It was like no one else was in the room. Just He and I. Simple, intimate, worship songs are still my favorite. Stripped down. Simply powerful. The music is beautiful, there is no doubt. I think it's our heart that He's most interested in. This past Sunday a well known gospel music singer/songwriter came to our church.  He led worship. I heard some good "ole" gospel tunes once again. Songs that you just can't sit still and listen to. You have to clap your hands, tap your foot, or play a tambourine (if you have one.) It's just that kind of music. He had written thousands of songs for well-known gospel groups. I listened to him as he spoke from his heart. He explained how all that had changed for him over the years.  He stated that he had even changed some of the lyrics to his songs; the arrangements. A simpler style. It was not about performance, or about how well he could sing (which he could) but it was about true worship. Holy Spirit was definitely there. I have always loved these lyrics by Matt Redman; when the music fades, all is stripped away and I simply come. Longing just to bring something that's of worth, that will bless your heart. I'll bring you more than a song, for a song in itself is not what you have required. You search much deeper within, through the way things appear, you're looking into my heart. I'm coming back to the heart of worship and it's all about you Lord Jesus, it's all about you. It's still as fresh today as it was twenty something years ago when I heard Holy Spirit say, "I have created in you a heart of worship... teach others." How in the world do you do that?  I immediately felt led to go to the scripture, an hour is coming, and now is, when true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth; for such people the Father seeks to be His worshipers. Can't say I totally understood then. Can't say that I understand much better today. I do know that, I see in a mirror dimly...I know in part thus I have moved a little closer in understanding then I did yesterday. I do know that I am in pursuit of Him...not the music. If you are reading this blog you will probably agree with me, that over the years, like the well known singer/song writer said, we have chased many things; jobs, opportunities, prestige, popularity...but at the end of the day the most important thing is...I am nothing without you, Lord Jesus.

sammie jean

God's Heart (adoption)

  they

seemed to have

 come out of

nowhere

  emptiness

in their hearts

  loneliness

in their eyes

they needed

 us

we wanted

 them

God's plan

  all along

He knew our

  hearts desire

He joined us

 together

our spirits

 became one

a bond like

 no other

love

 indescribable

 joy 

  unexplainable

fullness 

   has come...

we are

    complete

With love, 

Aunt Sammie

Written for my niece, nephew (in love) and family on their special "love is forever" day 💑

July 14, 2017